Monday, July 16, 2012

In My Shoes






In My Shoes

When who you are when you’re alone is just another stranger
When the real face you wear is hiding behind that face behind the mirror
Then you know what it’s like walking in my shoes

When you can’t trust yourself beyond your mind’s ability to reason
When you feel the thoughts shift and change with every change of the season
Then you’ll know what it’s like to be unstable

When every second that passes is a moment of restless fatigue and discomfort inside
When your pupils dilate from the chemicals swimming behind your eyes
Then you’ll know what it’s like to be frail 

When every fiber of your being wants to go back in time to stop the transformation
When you just want to crawl back into the womb, reborn into the infancy of restoration
Then you’ll feel the desperation inside me

When all you want is to feel the comfort of a woman holding you tightly in her warm embrace
When all you can do is stare back at those desolate eyes sunken in a weary face
Then you’ll know what it’s like to feel my pain

When every time you see a smile on the face of lovers strolling down the summer street
When every kiss reminds you of all that you lack and want so badly you feel defeat
Then you’ll know why tears fall down my cheeks

When every moment wasted on the past and unforgiveness of people we regret meeting
When every bloodstain met with the penetrating thrust of promises not kept after weeping
Then you will see me for who I am, and walk by in your shoes…

While my bare feet tread this narrow path…bleeding.


Copyright Adam Gaile 2012

2 comments:

  1. wow, Adam. this poem is just incredible. i feel your pain more than i can tell you.

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  2. Thanks...yeah I this one is really about my illness and the struggle I go through with it, but I appreciate the fact that you like it and empathize with it.

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